I kept getting told this when I first had Frankie and through the depths of my PND and still now and it makes me a feel a bit weird. Whilst my mum is amazing and will watch Frankie if I ask her, I don’t want to take the piss. She has her own life and is very busy and also looks after my 2 year old nephew 2 days a week so I just don’t feel comfortable demanding her time to watch him. And I’m not at a stage where I feel happy to leave him with anyone else.
I know me time and couple time is important but I really do feel that after the shitty start we had, the time spent with Frankie is much more important. Pete works all the time, he sees Frankie for about 15-30 mins in the morning and then we have 1-2 days a week all together and I’d like to spend that time as our little family unit. We had 3 and a half years as a couple and that’s why he’s here so I want to cherish that. Also, time without both my boys doesn’t seem appealing, I don’t want to spend time on my own! It’s dull.
I feel like I’m weird for not wanting to be away from him when everyone keeps telling me I should! We’ve had a couple of date nights where my mum has sat at our house whilst he’s asleep and I go to the hairdresser once a month and she has him for me but otherwise it’s me and my little buddy. And I kind of love that.
I just think after the blur of the first 3 months of his little life, I don’t want to miss anything. I may be more open to going out when he’s a bit older and I feel a bit less teary anytime it’s discussed. Also, I am a little incapable of having a proper night out without alcohol and a baby and a hangover just don’t seem appealing!!